I am a privileged person as a generality, but I did get laid off today (only me and my boss strangely). I realize that I am lucky as hell to have a severance offer and at least some savings to tide me over.
But mostly… I feel fucking elated. I no longer have to fake it another goddamn day at that soul-sucking cesspool of futility.
My attitude may change a month down the line if I haven't found anything new, but I think I will be okay. My boss happily offered to let me use him as a reference, a friend can have a job for me basically tomorrow if I wanted, but I think I may at least take a week or so to enjoy this newfound sense of freedom.
I feel optimistic, hopeful. I didn't realize just how drained of hope and optimism I was working for this place. I can be complacent, I guess I just thought I would grit my teeth and endure that place forever. I should have left of my own accord, but I feel grateful almost that life moved me onto a different track.
I dont know quite where I'm going, but it ain't where I've been.