3 jobs in my pro career, and they've all been good by American standards, especially the last two.
Been in my new jobs for 3 months. Great pay, great benefits, good boss, low stress, and I HATE it. Just like I hated my last 2 jobs.
I am so depressed every morning I have to get up and go in. It is hard for me to fight my urge to quit. Dislike being there so much that I don't do the work and then it piles until I really need to do it before boss notices.
I fantasize about doing other things with my life like starting an affordable summer camp or writing a book. Pipe dreams.
I have taken steps to become financially independent and retire early , but it won't be anytime soon. I contemplate adopting kids but hesitate because I know that will lock me in even more to this 9 to5 life.
And I feel so ungrateful for hating my life and situation when I know so many would probably love to trade places with me.
For those in similar situation, how do handle it? How do you just not quit and say fuck it?