I work in an office 5 days a week doing marketing. I've been there about 10 months but 2 of those months I was away for military duty. When I got back from my last mission I decided that I was in a place where I felt I could stop taking the antidepressants.
I was wrong.
Third week back in the office and I'm absolutely miserable. I've been late a few times because I couldn't get out of bed. I have no drive to do anything and I keep making mistakes. Then the HR lady does something that makes me super uncomfortable and I just can't take it anymore.
I'm back on the medicine I thought I was fine without and it fucking sucks. When I'm not at work I'm happy as a clam. But going into the office 5 days a week and dealing with annoying people when I could do everything from home is just killing me. (I'm an introvert so it's extra difficult.)
I was fine at my other jobs because they were labor intensive and I didn't have to put on fake smiles. I genuinely enjoyed what I was doing and the people I worked with. I honestly was less miserable in the desert with the Army. This office job is draining my life force.