I took a job, and I won't get into too much detail on what job it is, but I now am really struggling. I went from being a star employee, fully confident in my abilities to being the slowest employee who makes a lot of mistakes. I am constantly overwhelmed at my job. I can't leave because of a contract. I have to stay at my job for two years or pay back a bonus I got. The bonus helped me move closer to family. My job has really ignited my anxiety and OCD, which people do see, which makes me feel even more crappy. I am never good enough. I am never at anyone else's level. I have been given, and then had retracted two promotions because of this and false promises made by my boss. I have been at my job for a year and I don't know how I can handle another year. I feel I was not a good hire for this job. It's just too much for me. I feels borderline abusive at times, but everyone else in my department does just fine. So clearly it's me. Anyway, my confidence is destroyed and I feel like a loser. It's really, REALLY tough.