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Haunted by a mistake from 8 years ago.

I made a mistake at my current job (engineering firm) back in 2016. It was a big mistake but it only affected me and I remedied it in 2 hours. This mistake made for one of the worst days of my life and for sure the worst work day of my life. I suffered the jokes of this mistake for 5 years as one of my co-workers, and even one of my team leaders wouldn’t let it go. Call me soft but every time the story comes up I want to disappear, it’s humiliating and I have nightmares about it to this day. Flash forward to early 2020 (pre covid) said employee leaves for another job but the team leader still makes sure every new person hears the “haha that guy sucks at his job” story. I spoke to the team leader and asked him to stop as it causes…


I made a mistake at my current job (engineering firm) back in 2016. It was a big mistake but it only affected me and I remedied it in 2 hours. This mistake made for one of the worst days of my life and for sure the worst work day of my life. I suffered the jokes of this mistake for 5 years as one of my co-workers, and even one of my team leaders wouldn’t let it go. Call me soft but every time the story comes up I want to disappear, it’s humiliating and I have nightmares about it to this day. Flash forward to early 2020 (pre covid) said employee leaves for another job but the team leader still makes sure every new person hears the “haha that guy sucks at his job” story. I spoke to the team leader and asked him to stop as it causes me great mental stress and all I can think about for days after hearing the story is what a fuck up I am. He said he understood and wouldn’t do it again.
Now we flash forward again to last week. Almost all the original employees are gone and they have hired a ton of new people. Around comes the team leader and he starts to tell a story that I know is gonna lead to my 2016 foul up, I even said “don’t do it”. He does it, and come to find out he’s already told every new hire the story before I’ve even met them, so I’m basically a clown to these people, or at least that’s how I feel.

TLDR: I made a dumb mistake at work in 2016, I’m pretty sure I have PTSD over it, and a higher up still uses the story for his own amusement despite me asking him to stop. Not sure what to do except write it down just to get it out of my body because it’s all I can think about.

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