My rent is 940 a month.
Gas is 300 a month.
Other memberships 100 a month (for like 5 of them)
I spend 2 hours a day commuting to and from work.
I make 18$ an hour on top of an average 5 hours of overtime. I also get commission each week if the store does well (extra 150$)
I work 45 hours a week (within the time clock system)
My taxes take up 1/5th of my paycheck
My car is a 2005 Honda pilot with a rusting subframe and it might only last me 3 years. Also just get angry on the road because people are idiots and I almost get into car crashes within the two hours of driving each day. I've never gotten into one but if I was a tad sleepier in the morning I'd definitely be dead (envious of that dimension).
I design kitchens and lift cabinets.
Also my coworkers just piss me off but overall the work is alright, there's practically nothing to do each day in the spring or winter and even my bosses will just go on their phones. They won't train me for basic things and they get shocked when I learn things so quickly.
I'm 23F, I couldn't afford college and I don't have time to attend even now. I can't save money because of credit card debt which constantly perpetuates with car repairs but nobody else would hire me nearby because I didn't have 3 years of kitchen design experience shoved up my ass.
My plan was to use the experience here but I'm slowly rotting and I just feel like a failure.
I tried doing online college but they gave me shit about 2018 tax returns. I'm in a community college right now with one online class for “music appreciation” and it's so stupid I haven't passed in an assignment in weeks and I've just given up all together because I wanted to take something biology related.
My experience is Lowe's for 2 years, forklift license, reach Truck and op license. 2020 design and prokitchen experience. Kitchen design places don't want me because I need 3-5 years of experience.
I just feel like I'm working so hard for a fast food wage. My rent will go up next year and everything around here is expensive, it's in New England the shit here is crazy. Everythings expensive, even used shitty cars that need repairs every month.
I'm in a constant cycle of using my credit card for car repairs, I even took out a loan to pay off a Midas card because the interest was like 24% and the loan is cheaper. I'm tempted to sleep in a van somewhere and get a storage unit. Even then I need a good living space for my mental health because I've been homeless before.