I scored a job in January as an Apprentice mechanic for jets at this company I'm not going to name. Great job, great benefits, decent environment, and training that's paid for. After a few months working there, I'm starting to realize that maybe mechanic work is not for me. I only like certain parts like doing function tests, I think troubleshooting is extremely frustrating, and I think I have OCD. I have not gotten diagnosed yet, because I could get my FAA medical pulled and not be able to fly anymore. Which I don't do much of anyways, but I worked really hard to get my pilot license and I want to use it in the future when it's more affordable for me. Anyways, this possible OCD problem really makes work suck more. I always worry about the littlest things becoming a big problem for the pilots once they take the airplane into the air. And some (not all) of my coworkers just roll their eyes at me or get visibly annoyed when I try to ask them a question if what I did would be okay. They tell me “there is no squawk in the work order for OCD” which doesn't help at all. I always double check things way too many times to make sure I did it right, which is good but also unhelpful after checking it the 5th time. Another thing is that working 40 hrs a week really sucks. My bf is a pilot and his schedule is pretty random and our weekends don't line up well and we never have time to do anything we have talked about. It's turning into the relationship we didn't want. He has also brought up that my job and schedule is turning me into a bitter person and I am not like I used to be. We have wanted to have time to travel often and go out and live our child-free lives, but we don't ever have time. I don't think part-time would be an option for me since I am an apprentice, but not sure if I'd want that anyways. Its not a bad gig but not sure if it is for me. My bf says I should leave because he has the income for us to both live comfortably without me having to work. The only thing holding me back is being afraid to throw a possible career into the trash. I would feel guilty staying because my classes start in August and I don't think its fair for them to pay for me to do something I'm not sure if I even want, especially if someone who is super passionate about being a jet mechanic could get into my slot. And I wouldn't want my teammates wasting their energy trying to teach me if I'm not sure if it's for me. Maybe I should give it a second chance, I don't know. Sorry for the novel of a rant but open to opinions and suggestions in the comments.