There is not a single job that exists that interests me. I've searched for years, ever since I was back in high school, and nothing interests me. My only interests my entire life have been playing adventure games, and listening to my music. Everything else I feel nothing from, I get bored and fall asleep within minutes if it's anything else. I tried working a few part time jobs in my life and yeah, I either have a panic attack from imaging myself working a job I have zero interest in for the rest of my life, or I try to fight off the feeling of falling asleep from the boredom and robot feeling I get doing the task I could care less about.
Is this an autistic thing or something else? I've tried finding help and everything points to counseling, but when I tell them this they have no idea how to help me. They get confused because everyone else is able to find a job that interests them. Or they force themselves to do it and are able to somehow. I feel like I'm the only one who has this curse. What the hell is wrong with me, why can't i integrate into adult life like everyone else without going insane?