I'm autistic but my psychiatrist says I'm high functioning.
Due to that, the only support or accommodations I get is antidepressants.
I can't DO this.
I go to school full time and work full time. I make 17 an hour and I overdraft my bank account every week because I can't afford to live.
I'm doing everything right but I can't afford to live.
Work is so difficult for me as an autistic person. Transitions are difficult for people like us, and I spend most of my time in anxiety thinking about transitioning between work and home.
And at work I'm forced to speak with customers, which means I have to mask all day or else people think I'm rude or unfriendly. Then I'm exhausted from the masking.
I can't make time for my homework because I have a shit job and I'm always stressing about it
I don't even know how non autistic people handle this??
I'm so overwhelmed by life.
Like I legit do not think I can do this for sixty more years or whatever. I think about having to work for a living and it makes me genuinely s*icidal even tho I'm terrified of death. But this is so overwhelming. I can't.
And i keep running out of money because my bank keeps charging me so much in overdraft fees that when I get paid again, I have like $50 because they charge me a $30 fee for a .99 cent purchase and it adds up to like $120 a week because they seem to rearrange the purchases to make sure they can get the most out of me… I swear “pending” charges are a load of bull
This is just way too much. I feel like I'm going to explode.
There's no way this is possible for me. There's no way this is sustainable.