I have really come to terms with the fact that I hate work. I despise it. I hate being there, I hate giving time to a company and to people who only value me as far as they can extract labor and surplus value from me. I don't hate my job, I hate working. I hate being somewhere I don't want to be. I hate doing things I don't enjoy. I feel like a child whining, I know everyone in my family would tell me I'm being a baby or some form of “it is what it is”. Telling my friends, and even other leftists may get commiseration, but we all have to go back and lick whatever capitalist pays us starvation wages boot. It's not even just about pay to me, sure higher pay would be great, but I'd really love to not have to work at all. Building socialism is a great goal but we will not see it in our lifetimes. I still want to improve workers conditions, but how the hell do I exist in this state workout being horribly depressed all the time. I am scared I'll become an alcoholic or some shit if this is what the rest of my life will be like.