The title, basically. I used to love many things. I was happy to paint or play an instrument or sport in my free time. I never had down time between activities.
Now I have had a well paying do nothing job for over a year and suddenly my commute was reduced from 2 hrs to 6 minutes round trip.
I can develop myself at work. I have a family and toddler but there's time I could spend doing what I love but after 13 years of full time school and full time jobs I have lost passion for the things I used to do.
I used to play Rugby, ice hockey, and violin but none of those things fit well into an adult 9-5 schedule. I could go back to school on the clock but anything I want to do pays less than the minimum income my 5 person family can survive on.
I feel like a huge weight was lifted off my chest with my commute being shortened and my existential administrivia backlog being cleared. I don't feel depressed for the first time since COVID hit and wrecked my social life but all those people have moved on so far I can't catch up. I feel that I could spend time to be happy but do not know what that could be.