Honestly?! How the fuck is anyone actually managing right now?
I have lost all sense of direction and momentum in the last two years. I went from building my future career to barely keeping my head above water financially.
I'm stuck in a shitty arse retail job that doesn't give me enough hours but remains filled with disrespect, abuse an patronisation from customers and managers and i'm unable to actually make ends meet for most months, so I took on another job which only brings in an extra £150 a week.
My passions/hobbies are expensive therefore i've been unable to participate in them as i just don't have the dispoasble income, however when i do manage to have the money or time i'm just too exhausted or unmotivated to them.
I had such a drive in the hospitality industry which was brutally destroyed post-pandemic by the company I worked for and the customers who treated us like pure filth during EOTHO.
Recently I've looked into a complete overhaul of my lifestyle, mainly on a new career path but I have no idea where to start and without the core role models most people have I am lacking crucial guidance. My family does not come from wealth and I've never been out of work since 16.
I've been fiercely fighting suicide for the last 12 months but right now, other than my partner, I am running out of things to fight for.
I am lost, I am losing, but i have nowhere to go and victory is not on the horizon. I need help.
Work coaches, career advisors, employers, whatever.
I am an expert in all things food and beverage. I manage a catering company alongside my shitty retail job and do all things admin wise, that includes costing, creating and inputting financial data to monitor business performance as well as the boring stuff like sourcing suppliers, ingredients, equipment hire etc and I am exceptional at it. The owner just can't afford to give me full time for at least 6 months.
I am at my wits end. I want to do more and I want to do better. I will accept any help. I am looking for a hand up, not a hand out.
Thanks for your time.