That's not a rhetorical question. I can't cover my bills and the only reason I didn't starve was because a friend lent us money.
I work 40 hours a week. The job is so awful I have panic attacks even thinking about it. But I can't quit because then I have no money for food and a place to live. I have family counting on me, I can't quit.
Applying to jobs is difficult. All of the above stress plus everything happening right now. I try so hard and I can't make anything happen. I don't sleep and I don't eat. I barely have energy for daily tasks let alone a side job.
I am not lazy, I don't want to die…. but I am so tired of struggling.