I’m super adhd and do have problems with being late. I’ll be doing so good for a while then a traumatic event happens, depression & anxiety take over, then I’m back on the struggle bus with being late. So I lost my most recent job which i was really good at (and not a total loss because many of the managers were immature, only wanted to bitch about stuff that didn’t matter, and caused more drama than my peers. So I’ve been looking for a new job.
It’s such an infuriating task and I’m dealing with external factors too that have me extremely depressed again and have drained me of all my motivation. Idk what to do. It’s like it’s sending me into a panic to even think about working somewhere else now. It makes me sick to think about finding a job I sell my soul too and takes up either all my time or all my energy just to be able to BARELY be able to afford to survive cause the economy is absolutely disgusting rn. I’m forced to stay with an emotionally immature and abusive man cause I can’t afford to move out (couldn’t before I lost my job either cause we have the absolute cheapest rent probably in the country right now). My adhd just feels like it’s getting worse even tho I’m medicated so it’s hard for me to go for anything I know will be a dead end even if I tell myself it’s temporary. My brain wants to be able to do all my special interests instead (which I honestly could make money from and be successful in but it requires a lot of other administrative stuff first that my brain is refusing to do, which I also know how to do cause I had my own business at one point & it was pretty successful but my adhd decided “nah time to change directions” and the change did not go well).
Other jobs I could easily do and be incredible at require a college degree (which I’m actually like one class away from but I can’t bring myself to waste any more money on a degree I won’t use). Living is just so stressful it makes me physically sick. Idk what to do any more