Saw an accountant for the first time today. They made me realise just how bad my finances are at current. I'm currently a bartender, which I love, but the place I work at is giving me fuck all hours because the multi-million dollar hotel chain I work for can't spare an extra coupla dollars on me. I seriously just want it to be over. I'm only 22. The reason I'm in so much fucking debt is because I was in foster care, and the government kicked me out at 18 with no real life skills. I'm only just now getting my shit together and still don't understand it all. I have bpd, and have been on and off manic for the last few years until this year where I'm on a good medication balance, and for the first time in a fucking long time, actually have a stable home. Now I don't know how I'll keep paying rent. I'm paycheck to pay check. I had to pay fucking $184 fee for the bloody accountant. I thought I was getting 5k in tax return but because I received government benefits it fucked me in the ass. Being poor is a joke, a losing game. I have worked 4 jobs at once for 3 months this year and still didn't make enough. I just want to give up. I don't want to be like the capitalists and give up my humanity and happiness for money. But I'm starting to think I need to. Wish me luck.