Long story short, I am annoyed by just existing. I am stuck in this weird point of my life where I want to do more in my career, but cannot because I have debt I need to take care of first and I need full-time job in order to survive.
Right now, I work as a paralegal in smaller law firm studying for bar exam (have an LL.M. degree here in the U.S. – an Immigrant in the US). It is really hard for me to realize that I have to start working from scratch to prove myself. My long wish is to go to a great law school and become a civil right attorney or work as a judge, but cannot go to law school to do a full-time JD because I cannot afford it due to high tuition and need to take care of my family.
I just do not know what to do – I am not happy at my job at all because I am frequently being over-looked at and underestimated due to being immigrant, as well as constantly being micro-managed. Back in my country, I won a Supreme Court decision and was great lawyer. Here, I need to restart everything again in order just to make my means meet.
I had to write this somewhere because I cannot talk to people at work about this nor my friends because they have no idea how life in the US is. It is just hard not to have means to achieve your goals.