This isn’t the thread for this but I’m at my wits end. I literally have a mountain of rejection emails, going back since June. I had my resume redone. Am working with the disability place to find a job (meaning I come with resources the employer wouldn’t even have to pay for)… I’m really smart, really kind, and really defeated …
We’re going into -30 temps and I’ve still got a fall jacket because I can’t afford a new winter jacket. My roommate is helping me with food pantry stuff. But they are tapped out until January. I’m writing this in the donation line for plasma. I’ve been rationing meds for PTSD/Autism since august. Went from 10 pills down to 3. Haven’t slept well since September and its mostly nightmares.
I’ve gotten to the point where I go into the store and get the three things I need, and leave. It’s mostly oatmeal and rice with the third thing being something to add to the previous two.
I’m scared. I’m scared for what will happen. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve thought of ending it. No one wants a disabled person. I’m trying to get a journal wrote to sell online but that’s for people with enough “spoons” to get by and enough money to advertise. My spoons are few.
I don’t know what else to do. I can’t even do Christmas this year for my family. 1 present per my mom, sister, and brother was a lot. A lot. And I didn’t even spend 60$ total.
I’ve got good experiences, but am usually eliminated before we even get to an interview. If I get to an interview – I rock the phone one. The in person one is where I’m eliminated. I don’t really have the option of disclosing my disabilities as it comes out with my thought processes, reasoning, and inability to handle stress without medication.