This past spring I switched to a new team after realizing there was no growth in my old one. This new team is filled with very nice people and I am learning a lot. However I feel like I don’t fit in with them at all. I sometimes think it is because it takes me a while to warm up to people but whenever I talk I feel awkward and I’ve even lost confidence in my abilities. I have no motivation whatsoever. I think my old team ruined it for me. I went through so much just to be told “it’s just a job, anyone can do it” “you didn’t have to feel this way” now I don’t think it was meant in a harmful way but it made me realized all my hard work was for nothing because when I chose to speak up there’s not much they could offer me.
I’ve realized two things: 1. I was being held back on my old team and the skills I was learning I can’t really apply them now. 2. I found what I want to do – marketing. I have been at this company for 3 years and I have learned so much that I am unable to put into practice because I don’t think there’s space for me.