I’m confident that I’m a strong person. I’ve survived a terrible car accident, a fentanyl addiction, a Xanax addiction and everything in between. I moved up north and was in a happy relationship for a while, but I hated the area and my relationship fell apart. I moved back down and everything started to fall into place.
I was working out, eating healthy, going to therapy and overall I was just trying everything possible to take care of myself. After a couple months I finally had to start working again. Some personal issues happened at home and I needed a job asap. I started driving for Amazon. I feel like this job has put me in a worse place than before I moved back home.
It’s only been three months since I started here and it gets worse everyday. It’s so blatantly obvious that they don’t care about us and I’ve been trying to apply for new jobs but I’m so exhausted after work. I had a breakdown on Wednesday due to overwork and stress. I cried while delivering for 4 hours. Everything is so hard for me. Nobody understands that work is harder for an addict that has experienced the highest of highs. And everything hard for me just feels like the lowest of lows.
I’m just going to keep it 100 there’s no real point to this post. I need a new job as soon as possible or I’m going to do something I can never take back. And nobody around takes me seriously to the point where I feel the need to post on here. I’m trying my hardest, after everything I’ve been through I refuse to let a job be the end of me but fucking shit man life is so god damn hard. Keep your head up yall.