Hi all, I (21M) have been sitting with my own thoughts for a while now and I just came to the realization that I struggle with jobs and have severe work anxiety. No, I’m not lazy, when it comes down to it I can work. I just don’t want to work a job that works me like a dog and I get little to no pay. I’ve only ever worked a retail job in my life and their were 3rd party circumstances going on in my life that just didn’t help. I’m lost in life and have some ideas of what to do but god did working that job open up my eyes to reality. I went to college out of high school across country and did not have a good time. I was dumb enough to not pay attention to classes and completely failed (at least in my opinion, I still passed most of my classes or barely passed any). I left that school after a year their and came back home to go to community college. I did community college for another year still uncertain with my career choice. I’m still confused but have a better idea of what I want to do. My problem is, I really want to learn game design skills and art skills and make my own games and work on my own projects and work my way up to work with big companies and like minded in visuals but I know getting their is a challenging task. I worked retail about a year ago and hated every minute of it. It was my first job and has completely turned me off on work. But I need the money and I’m completely lost. I fear having to work a job similar to retail ever again. Am I the only one like this? I feel like I need a life advisor or something or job ideas for my predicament. I don’t have a car and I don’t have a license. I just want a way to make enough $ to pay my parents rent ($450 a month thankfully) and still find the time to learn the skills I need to work on projects and network and work my way up, finally get my own car and possibly move out but I feel that in this economy that’s not possible and I’m lucky my parents don’t charge me crazy amount of $ at the moment. I don’t want to be stuck in life anymore like this. Any help or advice are welcomed.
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