I feel like a fraud even being on an office job.

my job sucks. the company is ass. We get no paid holidays. everyone is either fucking everyone (especially managers) and if I have to pretend like I give a shit about my coworkers family issues I’m gonna shoot my brains out. I wanna make music with my bros and travel :/ I fucking hate work and I fucking hate our higher ups ( not my team lead. He’s actually a pretty chill dude tbh). Everything sucks