Jobs often ask if you can multitask. I say I can, reluctantly. And it usually works out at that level. The part that screws me over is this fucked up hyper-focus I get. Idk if it's like ASD or what. I've always been relatively normal, but this is one thing I can't seem to hide.
Ya see, when I'm working on something, I fixate on it a bit. And I actually tune out other things, save for what I need to pay attention to in my environment. Recently it's been getting kinda bad. I've been trying to educate myself on new subjects at home when I get off work. My parents are starting to demand my attention more as they get older. And maaaaan when I tell you I've been getting 🦀snappy🦀. But not overwhelmed and spiteful, like most young white men my age in my area. I just feel RADICALLY… Hyperfocused and tunnelvisioned. Does that make sense?
On top of that, I know there's been this whole talk of “emotional labor” in the workforce. You can't just do your job anymore. You also have to be SUPER fucking HAPPY. That level of obsequiousness is something I just can't seem to keep up with. I'm not an angry person, I just get hyperfocused. How fucked am I?
EDIT: tunnelvision is a maladaptive cope that normally works for me when it comes to errands and solitary hobbies.