(vent)
Hi y’all,
I’ve (M25) been an anxious mess with GAD since I was 5 and it’s triggered by big life changes (I.e. new schools, moving states, starts of a new semester or starting a new job).
I recently made the decision to quit my most recent job working in higher ed as the sudden changes from January 2022 lead to it becoming a toxic and unreasonable work environment that was just making me anxious EVERY day to the point of just wishing I would be fired.
I left with all the confidence in the world but without anything lined up. I live with family and have about 6 months worth of savings so I figured I’d be ok. I’ve only been out of work 2 weeks and I’m miserable, hardly sleeping and each rejection letter is bogging me down so hard that I just want to give up and curl in a ball…
I’ve put out almost 50 apps and have had only 2 interviews, 1 of which didn’t go anywhere and the other I got as far as a reference check after two interviews and just yesterday found out I didn’t get it…
I hate this, I hate how one day my brain is logical and knows what needs to be done and then the next I’m just in my own head and trembling from the anxiety of feeling worthless for not being employed.