On Thursday I have my second interview with a national auto insurance company, and I am terrified that will be the job I get. I am rapidly approaching my 40s and have been in the workforce for 20+ years at this point and the best I am going to be able to manage is a call center job taking claims for $18 an hour. I am so over customer service voice and pretending to be happy to help people who are willing to step all over me.
I hate thinking that this is all there is. I don't have dreams anymore. I just want to feel good. But I'm going to have to work Tuesday through Saturday until midnight, stuck in an office with a headset on listening to people scream at me because lizard auto insurance denied their claim.
I think every day about how much I want to be done living and just the thought of accepting this job has me ready to pull the trigger.
I can't do this anymore. I have been looking for months for something that will pay me well and leave me alone.
Maybe this isn't in the right forum, but I know this isn't what labor is supposed to feel like.