Hello.
I am a teacher, and I could not hate the paperwork aspect of the occupation more. I am not particularly good with office politics and colleague small-talk either.
The people at the workplace do whatever they can do to make you feel inadequate and worthless, they even don't listen to the students, ever. The school counsellor cried during one of the meetings from all the mobbing and tension. And they claim to be “understanding” and “good people”.
Today was the internal “team evaluation” day. The team leader began by calling her best friend with whom she commutes everyday “the best in the team” and how she could leave everything to her with her eyes closed. And proceeded to trash me to the ground.
She told that I was the weakest link in the team. How I needed to check every document before sending it to the principal (it was a formatting error she did with her friend, which I refused to deal with, which she took no responsibility of), how I had the lowest grades amongst all the classes (they have given me all the “problematic” ones, while picking higher levels for themselves), and how I messed up the last year students' lessons (they took all my hours for the “exam procedures” for 2 weeks, in addition to the week when I was deadly sick). And then she proceeded to say “I know your medical condition, and this is the most understanding team, you should be more integrated with the team” referring to my anxiety (i am known to pass out) and depression, which I have been living with for years now. It felt so bad to be called out like that because of something I “have”, and now I feel worthless and shit. I don't even want to live, let alone keep working. And I hardly doubt any higher-ups will listen to me, or I can find any other job at the moment.
What should I do?
Tl;dr: I feel like trash.