EDIT: just so tured and frustrated writing this sorry for any misspellings. Also not english native language:)
19 M living with my parents
Hi! I have been working the same job for about half a year and been having the same work task doing the same shit everyday.
At first it was fine i had a friend that also worked there. We could talk and joke around which made the day go by faster. I was also in a better mental state then and was pretty happy with life. I never liked the job but i could handle it.
But now the past couple months my mental health has gone downwards where im barely able to sleep and feel like shit with all this anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Which makes it really difficult for me to work and function. When im at work i feel so alone and dont talk to anyone so all i do is think, think and think. With my mental state right now thinking isn’t fun at all and feels like torture everyday. I have struggled with depression for as long as i can remember and this feels like an depressive episode.
I only have a contract 1 more month to work there but it really feels like i cant go through with it. I am so tired and hopeless everyday and hate my life partly because of this job. Feels like i cant take 1 more step in there or i will go insane.
What can i do i dont want to go back. Dont even want to talk to my boss face to face. Just want to get some rest and try to work on my mental health.
I am considering writing a message to my boss and just telling him how i feel and that i wont show up again. But is that fair or do i have to talk to him irl. I feel like such a loser not being able to handle a normal job and normal life right now but it feels like its whats best for me.
I live at home with my parents so money isnt an issue. Its just that my mom never understood me or how i feel so she will get mas but dad will probably support it.
Any tips from you guys on how i should go about all this?!<3
TL;DR
Struggling with mental health issues and working a job i genuinly hate. Insomnia and depression makes it hard for me to work. How should i go about this. I never want to go back there. I live with parents and money isnt the issue so im not forced to work there. Only 1 mont left on my contract but i cant handle that right now. What can i do?