So my boss has been…kind of a menace lately. Just really cold and rude and every day I’m liking fearing I’ll be fired. I have so much stress, I’ve been missing my periods, and I’m also going through a cancer thing right now. So just a lot.
There was no real reason why my boss has started acting this way, at least that I can pinpoint. I’ve asked a million times if I could perform better or doing something different, and they always say no.
We used to have such a great relationship, but now I’m scared of them. Like actually terrified. So they asked me if I did something the other day, so I quickly sent an email to start the thing, and I then lied and said yes I already did it. Because I was so scared I would get yelled at and I panicked.
I’m not someone who likes to lie, and it’s eating me up inside. I don’t know what to do. I feel bad that I didn’t start on the thing, but I thought I had more time but apparently my boss had other deadlines I didn’t realize. I’m hoping I can accomplish the task before they notice, and that they don’t actually ask me when I did it, but I still feel terrible.
But I feel like if I say I lied, that’s just actual ammunition for them to fire me. Even though I only lied because my boss scares the living shit out of me lately. I hate living this way. I hate working. I hate it all.