And then they fired me. Most careers are just cogs in the murder machine. I made peace with this, I found my desired part i would play in society. I studied and got a degree. In school I met others entering my field and experts who came to visit/headhunt.
I learned the dark side of office work and did my chosen job at a couple places. But the same issue keeps popping up. I do my job well, better than some of my co workers. Then I'm fired.
I last longer at jobs where I try to do nothing. But I can't help myself. It's easier to be efficient. Doing my job well is a compulsion. And then they fire me.