i started working a job maybe three weeks ago and i’m emotionally exhausted. i don’t have time for anything. i work in a very hot greenhouse, and i mostly stand at the register all day. it’s exhausting emotionally and physically. today we have an employee meeting at 8am, and i work from 10-5pm. i want to quit. i mean like right now, like today, i want to just not go back in and go back to random gigs and having real time. i get paid a good old $10 / hour
the real thing standing in my way is guilt. i know my coworkers will bear the burden of me being gone, that resentment will be there. i don’t want to resent myself. i need emotional support to do this, so i figured this is the right place to be.
i know i deserve to have a life that i love. with time and energy to exist. i don’t want to put that on the line because of a job that is not giving anything back to me.
i have a hard time keeping regular jobs and i’m not sure i will ever not have a hard time doing that.