Just Like what I title suggests. I'm having a hard time working this out by myself because I manifested this job. I didn't want to invest in a vehicle so I got a WFH job before COVID hit. Great schedule, benefits and hell I even got a raise in Feb. My mind and feelings are playing tricks on me. I'm so confident I can move on but I can't find myself to fake it until I have a job offer on the table. I'm trying really hard to be mature because the cry baby in me wants to walk away and deal with the consequences as they come. I don't have a savings but can get through one month and a half before needing money, I'm confident in ability to find a new job by that time, I'm not confident on not saying yes to the first offer I get because by that time I will be thinking about bills and I would be in the same or worse position I'm in. I'm so mad at myself because I literally manifested this job down to the department. It's a good company to be with. I KNOW THIS. you know some people want the world and everything in it, others want to see the world burn. I'm just trying to make to my end of life stage and not die by own hands, maybe help or encourage people to do the same. Hopefully live until my mom time is up here. I'm here filling up space and not taking it up like I see others do. I enjoy the little things I'm working on my perception of life but I'm great in dealing with chaos. I've used most of my pto already. I dont qualify for FMLA bc of my hours I have an LOA for intermittent ADA request still need ppwrk for it. Does anyon have sound advice for me? Maybe ask me questions so I can get out of the train of thought. I only have two purposes in life be a good person and dont kill myself although I dont think I would do it over a job I seen people become desperate for less. I could always ask to go part-time. I could afford that. For now I guess not in the long run. I'm still trying to move out of my living situation. Maybe I just need to smoke some weed or something. Great now that's my addict mind coming into the convo. UNIVERSE HELP!