My manager and other people from the top management are aware of my health issues and I’ve been granted permission to work from home. I do my job well, try to plan ahead and ensure all my tasks are completed before the deadline.
However, every time there’s an event, I’m invited to come and I decline stating the difficulties I face with respect to my health and they always understand, even though saying no comes with a lot of stress and anxiety.
There’s another event coming up and yet again I’m asked to come and I mentioned it would completely depend on how I feel the day of to which one of them said that I come at least for a day and that I’d not have to run around and can be seated throughout. With the unpredictability of my health, even sitting for long periods tends to aggravate my pain and cause me discomfort and explaining it to others again and again exhausts me. And also the thing with my workplace is that if you agree to do something once, they start asking you to do that thing again and again. So now if I go for one event, there would be an expectation for me to attend during other times as well, which I can’t and I don’t want to.
I really don’t want to be a part of this event on ground, I’m just not interested and to explain my physical difficulties to others again and again just makes me so uncomfortable. Like makes me think and wonder what they would be thinking about me since I always mention my health as a reason for not being present on ground even though it’s valid and while a part of me doesn’t care what they think, a part of me jumps to the worst possible conclusion.