I would rather kill myself than have a job.

I look around me everyone is obsessed about investing, making money and I’m here paralyzed hating my job and sucking at it… i can’t keep on doing this I don’t fit with corporate jobs or even trades… art was my thing but the fact I will face financial and societal struggle if I go down that path has obliterated my passion… now i feel like a nobody who can’t function or adapt to this corporate system and I feel incredibly suicidal