my friend and i are upperclassmen in high school. we both are near top of our class, d1/d2 athletes and look amazing for scholarships and colleges. although, neither of us have any idea what our goal in life is, and it’s kind of depressing. we genuinely can’t imagine any job that’s worth working for the rest of my life. we considered physics, but in the long run, we thought, “what even is the goal in that?” we’re both exceeding in math and physics, but neither of us are likely enough to go far enough to make some grand discovery in astrophysics or something. we’re smart but we don’t see ourselves dedicating our lives to finding something on that great of a scale, not to mention how unrealistic the goal is. aside from that, anything that interests us, like anthropology or something that aligns my very leftist beliefs, doesn’t pay well at all or have an extensive job field. i have no idea what i’m working for. plus it gets to a point where i can’t look at a study guide anymore, and i’m relying on myself. a company is gonna expect me to be flawless and know everything in my field and apply it to my position, i can’t get away with not knowing anything. i just have absolutely no idea what i want to do with my life, i know i can change my major mid-college, but i want at least a good outlook for my working career, especially while taking advantage of my gifted smarts. i’m scared to graduate, i would love to stay in high school forever, where i’m learning new things and teachers keep me on check. but i can’t, and i hate it. it’s a privilege that is finally leaving from my life. maybe i’m asking for advice from others on what i should do. honestly some good major options would be greatly appreciated as well, i don’t think i care about making an abundant amount of money anymore, just to have a goal and enjoy life while sticking to my morals. this is a ramble so i’m sorry if it’s poorly written.