I'm stuck at an office job i got 3-4 months ago. I don't have a job deal/paper yet but they gave me an ultimatum to say if i'm staying or not ( i found the job through a family friend after moving and being jobless for months)last friday.after listening to multiple family member's opinions I said yes. But just now i'm realizing i probably can't meet their expectations. I won't disclose what the job requires/etc but i have severe anxiety (general and social) and i just feel like it's too much to the point i cry every single day and have s*icidal thoughts. I've gone into this job thinking it'll be part time (25hrs a week) temporary replacement job. Then they said they'll be expanding and leaving me and a new coworker to do everything at the office in 6 months, expecting me to become fulltime.
I was told noone will be nice to me anymore and i need to start using my brain and will be held accountable for making mistakes, financially or otherwise so.
Everyone tells me i need to keep this job for my own sake because i won't find better (i have no education). I can't leave and i feel like i can't do this either. I feel like i'm losing it and have nowhere to turn.
Posting this to get opinions or some advice.