I just, need to get this off my chest. This really shouldn’t be complaining, I have a job that I…don’t hate, it pays better than most (about 85k a year), and my boss is really great and super supportive. But despite all this, I just feel so hopeless.
I had to go into a goo chunk of debt to get the degree that allowed me to get my job (about 100k, give or take), and it feels like a fucking stone around my neck. Can’t save money for a home (or anything) because rent is so damn expensive. Can’t qualify for a mortgage because of the student loans, and once the payment freeze ends, my payments are gonna take a good chunk out of my current budget.
I could get a second job, but that would mean more money to loan payments and it would probably take 2-3 years to save enough to get into a house.
I have a few kids and I worry, I can’t save anything to make their life easier as they get older. Won’t be able to pay for their education (regardless of if it is college or trade, or whatever). I am still relatively young, but was diagnosed a few years back with a really aggressive autoimmune disease and, well, my health is starting to rapidly decline.
I know I am better off than most…he’ll I don’t know how most people are surviving. And even still, everything seems so hopeless.
Anyways, rant over. Fuck capitalism and this dystopian hell hole it has led to.