This has been running around in my head way too long and I just need to get it out. I’m sure there are other people who feel the same way.
I’m currently working at a company that doesn’t treat their employees like canon fodder. I’ve worked there for about 8 months. I didn’t have these anxieties until my direct supervisor went on medical leave. I worked in retail before I moved over to health care. The worst time in retail was working the front end at a grocery store that I will not name. I also worked pickup at this store as well.
On the front end, the manager was micromanaging, condescending, and just generally awful. When she left for the night the entire store was more relaxed. We could breathe again. I thoroughly enjoyed her days off and vacations.
The manager in pickup was a literal ray of sunshine. Always helping us when the department was busy, never belittled us and was just generally a delight to work for. There was another supervisor under that manager that was high strung and petty to put it mildly. There are accounts of her crushing the chips of customers if they angered her. I didn’t look forward to the manager having days off because I knew we would have to deal with petty and high strung all day. That great manager jumped ship. I did as well a week after. Just couldn’t take it without the sunshine there.
I moved to an office job. It was fine but didn’t offer work from home. I eventually left that job for my current one because I can work from home.
The point of this post is that my current supervisors and even upper management have been nothing but kind to me even when I screwed up. The thing is I’m so used to dealing with bad management and I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop and it hasn’t. It’s driving me up the wall with anxiety and I don’t know how to make it stop. I keep doubting myself on things I know I know how to do. I also wonder if anyone else feels this way?