I feel terrible. My self-esteem is in the garbage. Yet, there is this relief. Not having to go back there. I'm so conflicted.
They say I can work up to 4 more weeks to give me time to sort something out, but I just can't. It's too embarrassing. Too awkward.
Jobs are hard to get here. Can get by more while. The thought of starting over makes me sick.
I'm 40 in a few weeks. I have a terrible track record with work. I can't find anything I'm happy doing for more than a few months. I get I'm a problem here, but man doesn't it suck.
I've been busting my ass on a side hustle, but god damn it's competitive out there. Like, how do I keep going job to job, career to career for another 25 years? Wait… what am I talking about… I don't own a home or have savings for retirement. I can never stop working.
K, so I hit the whisky and needed to vent it out. I feel like y'all are my people. Everyone else will tell me I'm a slacker and need to buckle down and do better.
Oh god. I'm going to have to tell my boomer parents (is 70 a boomer? Not sure). They both had the same job for 45+ years. I'm a total disappointment to them already. Damn it…