Just throwing this out into the void. As an internet hermit I tend to keep reactionary feelings to myself but I'm in the process of breaking hard.
I've been working a little over a week at the front desk of a gym. I was working hard, agreed to come in early and always asked questions about the job. I brought a notebook to work out important notes and things to remember to improve on. Especially things I should look forward to learning in the later part of my training. I was never late for anything and asked if there was anything else to do before clocking out. I was also extremely kind to the other staff and every customer. I would root on nervous children on the nearby rockwall.
Management decided to let me go today. I wasn't bubbly enough. There was too much pushback on my part during training because I kept asking about things they weren't ready to train me on.
I have the kind of personality that's too sugary sweet if I don't reel it in. Think Enid from Wednesday. I haven't been there long enough to understand the vibe and adapt. Wasn't trying to weird out and be too much.
As far as the pushback, all I'm understanding is that I got fired for being too proactive in learning how to do my job. If I was being too pushy, why didn't management pull me aside and communicate this to me sooner? I don't have a backbone. I fail to see how I'm capable of pushback.
On top of all this, I was fired from my last job because I wasn't fast enough. It was food service at a local sandwich shop. To be honest, I'm just not good at this industry and I've come to terms with it.
I feel like a failure. Everything just feels so meaningless after trying so much to hard fail at once. I'm never enough of something for anyone and I'm so tired.
Going back to Indeed sounds exhausting.
Okay. Rant over. Going to stuff pizza and beer in my face.