Hey everyone.
I’ve been recently struggling with feelings of failure and inadequacy after receiving a mediocre “needs improvement” eval at work. I’ve been with my organization for a little over two years and in my current role for the past six or so months and have been dedicated to my job. I’ve received similar evaluations from my past employers but this has hit me particularly hard because I felt that I had grown past it in a new role with a supportive manager. This negative feedback has left me feeling like a failure to launch.
The evaluation stated that my growth has only been incremental and that I need to improve before my next evaluation or risk being demoted or let go. While criticism is part of any job it’s difficult to not take it personally and I feel like a failure. I feel like I’ve let myself and everyone around me down especially since I’m only one of a handful of black folks in a PWLI. I feel like I’m not succeeding in my career as I had hoped.
I don’t know what to do where to turn. I’m struggling with my mental health and self esteem, and I’m looking for guidance and support to help me navigate this difficult time. I’m open to therapy or counseling I but I don’t know where to start or what resources are available to me. If anyone has any recommendations on how to cope with feelings of failure and navigate the pressure I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you.