Posted this on r/self but wanted to commiserate here too and see what the sub has to say (if I’m being a bad employee or if I have a right to be frustrated).
I just came on here to rant because I’m pissed. I was up for hours last night shaking and crying, I’ve been going through some things in my personal life that have been effecting my mental health. I wrote out a polite text explaining this to my current boss, essentially saying I’ve been struggling lately and I won’t be in today. I work at a school as a parapro and this is the last week of school so I figured it was not a huge deal as it’s not like I have an entire class to be watched and groups are essentially disbanded at this time of year.
However my boss sent back something whiny along the lines of “Please understand every time you call out things need to be rearranged to cover your duties”. Really the only thing I assume she would be talking about is when we watch the kids at recess, as at any other time of day the kids are with their teachers. During the year I would pull them out of class for extra support wherever it was needed, but as I said earlier this is no more. I also only joined this school in March and there was nobody else in my position before I got there. So clearly in the months before I was there they made it work – not sure why it’s such an issue now.
I do fault myself too because I have called off one day each week for the past two weeks. I swear I’m not trying to get out of work and I’m not lazy. I absolutely love my job and I’ve been picking up extra hours helping with extracurricular activities because it truly does mean that much to me and I care about what I do. I feel like my boss doesn’t see that at all. She’s also significantly older and I’m quite young for my profession so I feel like this comes into play and she has the idea I’m some young lazy person which is simply not true.
Regardless there’s really only 3 days of school left after this and it’s highly unlikely we’ll be doing any learning during any of them, plus the last day is all field trips so I’m positive nothing I’m needed for will be happening then. I do still plan on going in but I just hate that boomers make me feel some type of way for prioritizing my own well being over my job.