Hi Guys,
Hope it's okay to post here.
I started my job back earlier this year after being laid off by a large tech firm. I managed to get something that was the same salary and sector.
I started and it was pretty clear that training would be minimal, supported by the rest of the team saying this. The general vibe on the team is quite unhappy and it would seem that the VP has taken a bit of a disliking to me (heard me chatting to another staff member about how I was unhappy with the lack of training and felt like the work wasn't being distributed fairly, my own fault, moment of weakness). Thankfully my line manager and the main boss seem to like me and think I am doing a good job.
Since then I just feel so anxious all the time. My workload is significantly more complicated than the other new staff and I just feel like I need to escape. I have never felt so trapped in a role in my life. For some reason I am plaguing myself with worries about my performance and filling in gaps where nothing is being said to me by just assuming I am doing a shit job.
Obviously it wasn't my choice to want to come work here, being laid off brought me to them. I just feel so deflated and aimless applying for jobs. My notice period is short thankfully, so once I am out, I am out. But I am a total mess. I have never given someone so much power over me but the VP makes me feel so small when they speak with me.
I just don't know what to do.