So as the post says- I got word last night that my 60ish year old boss shot himself at the office Monday night.I work at a small law firm as a probate paralegal. It’s just me, him, the secretary, the part time bookkeeper and one other attorney (75). My boss also had three other legal related jobs on top of this firm. He’s expressed to me he has been overwhelmed and can’t get a handle on things. I was reassuring but didn’t think it was this bad. He really hadn’t been acting himself the past month.
The bookkeeper kinda runs the place and has worked with my boss for 40 years. She told us to take all the time we needed to process this but I found out today at 230 pm that everyone BUT me was back at the office today.
Like… he shot himself in the head literally 1.5 days ago. I’m the youngest person where I work (36) and everyone else is 50+. I have no idea what the future holds for my career. Am I crazy for thinking they’ve returned too soon?? Is it a generational thing? I feel pressured to go back and work but I have not even begun to process this tragic event. I feel completely numb and fearful for my future right now.
TL;DR- my boss unalived himself at the office and I’m feeling pressured to return.