This is a bit of a rant/vent. I work in engineering and although I am grateful for having a good job and things could always be worse. I'm wondering if anyone feels this way too, when I leave work it's like my day can finally start, I'm finally out of the cage and I can be myself again. I don't feel accomplished leaving work, I don't feel happy seeing the paycheck all I can think of is the days of my life gone by that I will never get back. The sad part is I love math and science, I do math in my free time for fun occasionally, but work has ruined my sense of curiosity and want to discover. It's all turned black, I feel hopeless because there's no way out of this. I think everyday what even is the purpose of this on my commute. What's the point of money if I can barely even maintain one hobby. Why would I ever have a family in this world and bring someone else into this. Why does the reality of spending the majority of my waking living breathing hours of my life must be spent at work, has ruined any enjoyment I had from my field. Just a rant, we all have different situations and i feel sad for all people, none of us should have to do this. God bless everyone and stay strong