Basically what the title says. I’m doing a very intensive apprenticeship and it’s making me sick. It’s making my chronic health issues worse, I don’t have a social life anymore because I spend 4 hours commuting everyday, and I can barely take care of myself. I’ve been missing a day a week at work because going in makes me feel violent against myself, and I don’t feel safe doing the work I’m doing given how many tools and sharp objects I’m around. I self harm at work.
The worst part is, I can’t leave. If I leave, I have to pay back thousands of dollars because of a bonus they gave us. I’m so tired.