I’ve been depressed for a long time now, longer than I’ve been at this job but it has been exacerbated by working here. I thought I was handing things okay, been trying to workout and connect with loved ones more. I’ve been trying to find a different job for months but nothing pays as much that I’m qualified for. Just got notice from my manager that I’ll be sent to two different job sites four hours away two weeks in a row. I started crying. Idk what to do, I can’t imagine mentally getting through two weeks of 40-60 hours each basically in solitude. I’d be away from my pets and have to find someone to care for them and be away from my home. I’ve also had health issues with sleep that I’m waiting on testing for so this would be physically daunting as well. My first thought was wanting to die. Then naturally wanting to quit on the spot but that would almost mean death in itself bc I would have no job and basically no savings. I feel so scared and so lost idk what to do