Started crying in the shower this morning, been crying since. I work at a place called Success Academy, it's a charter school, it's like Hell on Earth. Every Monday I contemplate walking into traffic and letting a bus hit me, or even just a car so I break a few bones and am out of work for a few weeks. Sometimes I feel like the only way to prove to my family how horrible this job is would be to genuinely just end my life. My job makes me suicidal, I wish I was dead. And now I'm crying because I know if I end my life today to finally be free I will devastate ny mother and my girlfriend who I love more than anything else in this world. I wish I was dead.
I wish I was dead