I’ll preface by saying this post is information/discussion seeking and an opportunity to work through some conflicting feelings for me, so please take that in good faith rather than immediately jumping to accusing me of sowing division and not acting in solidarity. I’m trying to understand anti work and leftist labor ideology better.
The issue at hand is that I have always been an extremely efficient worker. I think it’s mostly fueled by boredom and a certain anxiety of being idle in the workplace. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve gotten a bit better at being “chill” and understanding my duties and trying to focus on doing those. That being said, my efficiency and energy are still often spotted by managers and I often find myself being asked to more or less, pick up the slack of colleagues who’s performance isn’t exactly up to snuff. On the one hand, I don’t feel it’s appropriate for me to delegate tasks or be upset with my peers as I understand that none of the us are compensated in a way that justifies demanding 100% from them. On the other hand, it is exhausting crying on my way home every day becuase I stayed 45 minutes late finishing odds and ends that were assigned to other people, people that have literally been caught napping in closets. Now, before it’s commented that I shouldn’t be picking up that slack, I’m with you! I’m asking how to navigate the chaos and anxiety that comes with watching how that affects the team. I’m asking how to navigate the frustration that comes when this inevitably affects my performance review. For what it’s worth, I’ve tried bringing these issues to management and at best, I’ve been told that they see it and need me to keep performing at that level because we’re so understaffed, or have been told to worry about myself only to be reprimanded later when we aren’t prepared for things.
I want to stand in solidarity. I also want to do my job well. Any thoughts or insights are appreciated.