I can’t stop thinking about how shit that first day was. It’s three in the morning. It’s a Saturday job but I don’t want to go back. I think I should quit. I’ve literally drafted an email to the manager already and am about to hit send. This has really fucked me up mentally. Like it’s hard to describe but even thinking about turning up their next week seems fucking futile and shit. My mental health is crumbling and I thought a job could make it better but not this one. This is the first time I’ve ever experienced a “fuck this I want to quit on the spot, cut my losses before I start and pretend it never happened moment.” I do these things to please others I never even wanted this job to begin with it seems like it’s for everyone else but me. I just focus on what everyone else wants and please them and it’s fucking exhausting. I knew I didn’t want this job and when I applied it was honestly like tipping scales when deciding. I’m aware of wasting their time so I just want to stop this shit before it even begins.