Antiwork

For reference, I work as an EMT/security guard at a residential complex. (Please don’t thank me or anything it’s not like that.) This is a really cushy job, and the pay and benefits are great. The work is largely routine, with the occasional real emergency being easily managed thanks to the resources we have. The problem is the other people. Management has made it clear that I have to take orders from every other person on the team. That would be fine, except they are abusive of their seniority. Each week we are assigned tasks, and every day they use their seniority to order me to stay at our office while they joyride the golf carts. I can’t do my work, and they are blaming me for their work not getting done either. They actively use any tiny mistake or stroke of bad luck to build doubt in the eyes…

As I start writing this, I dont even know if I have carma enough to post.But, this doesnt matter as much right now as ill prolly push it into a comment if i can post it. I have been a TRUE believer of the “you have to work” mentality, meaning I believed the “your work is ur identity” to some extent.This, in retroperspective, has probably been like a mental jail cell these last years.I did everything how I should have, studied to become an engineer, and has been working in multiple industries the last 10 years.The goal of this, as Im one of those “ambitious” guys who are VERY outgoing, and aiming for “CEO” Like, for many years, my brain actually thought this was the holy grail to feeling “succesful”. This makes it even harder to realize, it was a brain washing…. MANY things made me re-think, this forum actually…

What would this look like? Is there an example in existence of something close to this in the world?

I'll start… I frigging dislike how uptight the app is and full of self congratulatory back pats and transactional job postings.

They dont seem to realize were all 1 happy family here. Does anyone know the meaning of “job” and care to share with the rest of the group?

Here's a little backstory: me and a colleague of mine both applied to an internal job. My experience matches closely the experience required atthe new job while my colleague's is similar at best. He was given the job and my manager gave me some bs feedback on why i did not get it. I am absolutely sure that he was promissed this new job even before having the interview, since they were overconfident about getting it. The interview did not have any technical questions (for a highly technical job). The question is: is it worth trying to uncover the truth and asking for a real reason or am i just loosing my time?

For context, after studying for 5 years and taking a 6 months internship, paying 42k€ for my studies, and struggling to find a full-time position for the past 15 months (after the end of my internship), I've finally landed a position in my field. But in these 15 months I've never felt more anxious than I feel now. The job is in Munich. I'm sure the city and its people are lovely, but it is 900km away from what I've known my whole life, from my few loved ones, and from my family. There's also a lot of administrative paperwork to go through before I can permanently move there. I hoped the pay would make up for it but after taxes I'm only left with 1.9€k/month (12€/h). From my point of view 1.9k€ is ok, but it is less *hourly* than what I made at some part-time jobs. More importantly,…