Antiwork

Bit of backstory: I started work as a cashier at a clothing store in the US in late September. Coming up on two weeks ago, I was sexually assaulted (outside of work if that matters). I brought my manager my ER excuse and told them why I had been out and that I'm currently on a concoction of antibiotics and antivirals. Less than a week later, I had gone to urgent care and gotten a note for two days off so I could recover from the nausea and vomiting the medication and anxiety are causing. Both side effects still occur, and I was given an anti nausea medication to try to help. Earlier today I had messaged one of my managers after vomiting twice while trying to get ready for my shift, and I was guilted into coming in for a later shift (one hour later). I am almost always…

There’s such a huge cognitive dissonance in knowing that capitalism is a shit show and that my life has value regardless of my job or performance but still having that extreme cortisol spike and panic attacks when a mistake is made or a client is pissed. I know I could get another job and but I’ve never stayed for more than two years and doubt I could find something else remote. I am talking with a therapist and work as a remote CS rep for a growing company. Small family owned business that has exploded to a corporation around two years ago and growing. My direct manager has been very forgiving but i constantly get shit on by our clients due to our turn around times/decreased quality without any efficient way to escalate, communication with production is ass so things get missed very frequently, and there’s a huge disconnect between…

I am so sick of these companies moving employees to remote and even still overstepping and watching over your shoulder. On Tuesday, I had to walk away from my desk for literally like 3 minutes, which I generally never do unless I’m on break. I came back, and I could see a manager in the same file I was working in doing nothing but basically watching. She stayed there for the next 15 minutes after I got back. Now I have a surprise performance meeting next week. This company expects non stop work for 8 hours and pays the bare minimum and pulls you into meetings for just 3 minutes away from your desk for literally $11 AN HOUR IN 2022. What the actual fck.

Today, I was told I was going to a different department to work on a “project” for a week, which they couldn’t tell me what it was. I was offered an interview for said department about a month ago, but the people there sound miserable when we transfer patients to them. I immediately said no thanks. So kind of annoyed that they just told me I have to go help with a mysterious project at that department. Also today we had a potluck, I brought fruit, the HR manager was having a muffin, I asked if she’d had fruit, not in a bad way, she says to me “fuck you” like in a joking way, I’ve only been there 90 days. I don’t know this person like that. Im fucking sick of working for assholes! It’s a smaller company so I don’t want to stir the pot, last time I…